It's time for me now to consider how I'll look back on my actions now in the future.

I don't want to EVER reflect on how I couldn't stand up to the pressure and not do acid or ecstasy. Those are not who I am. I'm making myself a promise, because I need to say this once and for all.

I will not try acid or ecstasy. I'm not interested. I am not willing to risk myself with those. I will not try acid or ecstasy.