things I'm keeping

1.

I am so afraid of losing at this game.
When I look at you, your eyes are like wells, and I can tell that some day I won't be able to climb out.

2.
If I could, I'd tell you that my heart beats in the wrong body parts for you--ears, feet. But my tongue turns inside out and I'm wordless.

3.
During our friendship I've kept a tally.
Times I wanted to kiss you: every.
Times I didn't want to kiss you: none.

4. I want to tell you that you make my body sick. When you leave I stagger back to my room with my stomach dropped out.

5. How do I get to where you are? I'm not sure that I can see it from here.