Feeling fine, o feeling patient.

16th birthday has been

Kicked. Raped. Bitten. Fucked.
In the head.
Shopping for dresses
Messes
Tresses
Kisses in the rain
No pain
All gain
On cocaine.
In the head, in the head, in the head.
It's almost summer, I will wear leggings forever.
On my legs, legs, legs.
Joyous, oh joy filled jelly donut.
Oh joy oh joy oh creme filled jelly licious joy joy joy.

It's an emergency

I see myself looking at myself looking at myself

My stomach muscles pulling against each other frantically.
9, now 8, minutes until I need to be watching TV.
Fuck the importance of AP testing.
When I eat cheese, I feel like I am going to die.
When I have to be with out you.
I miss you.
I'm in love with.
I'm in love.
I am in, I have fallen into this, a trap I set out sweet with sticky peanut butter and forgot to put away.
Delicious.
But now I'm stuck, and I could chew my way out but my mouth is already full with all the things I knew I needed to say.

Sneaking in the back door

My sixteenth birthday is coming up.

I used to be terribly excited, but now it seems like it's going to be just another day that was supposed to mean something but didn't.
Stupid final, stupid school.
I wanted to be in love now I'm in love I can't remember being happier it's not what I anticipated.
I knew I could screw things up if I tried.
Now I see you and I turn my face now I see you and I run away.
"Love doesn't mean it will be alright."