Dear, dear friend

Gentleman hands:

That's what I want to have
Though now, red, chapped, stinging,
Slathered with moisturizing lotion
Soon, they will be
Soft and supple, whiter than a glove
Any second now, they'll turn beautiful
I want to have gentleman hands.

Find the time.

You've gotten small enough to repeat now.
Small enough that it's just your face in the cracks
Between these words
Smiling and staring staring and smiling
I don't know which way I like it better.
But you fell. You fell and I fell because I saw your weaknesses.
Like beautiful wrinkles, like ugly Botox.
Running, why didn't you tell me you were fast.
If I had known how quickly you were going to leave
What I thought we had
I would have laced up my sneakers too.
I don't think you should leave.
I want you out.
I can't lead you in your struggle I can't lead your path.
I won't do drugs I'm too good at math.
They were all in my class
They were all in my class
And Now I Love Them
Did they turn me you've got to wonder before
The structure for wondering falls down.
If nothing comes from nothing
Then what we had was nothing.
But when we spoke and laughed and slept
How much I wanted to believe it was something else.

Grow up.

Maybe if you listened to me as intently as you did to her

You'd know that I have just as much to say.
Her hair is as fake as she is!
Her hair is as fake as she is!
You stared right through me and missed me somehow
Do I stand taller? Do I smile brighter?
Don't look at me, you'll see
What common, uncommon love I've found with out you.
It ends tonight,
You've got it right.
Don't forget that you might have missed something possible.
And I won't forget that I deserve better than you because everyone deserves more than nothing.

I need a lover with soul power

Buying will prove my soul's existence,

Only in consumption can we see what we spend
And what we're worth
My cell phone keeps my breast bone warmed
When just last night it was my head on your shoulder
The rules are choking the life out of me
I don't know how to break free
Tell me your secret
Teach me to drive.

We're not gonna get caught

 We're not the same?
Look at my hands
My skin is cracked like yours
Look at my face
My tears are as bright as yours
Look at my heart
Look into yours
We all love the same way.

Breaking form// breaking out

 I saw that girl walking home
Her arms outstretched
Hands uncovered in the biting wind
Holding, of all things
A book.

Did Adam and Eve begin the cycle of sexism? Was Christianity just another excuse to dominate and oppress? Cynicism is rotting my soul, but I'm afraid of not knowing the truth.

I resent that the most a high school girl wants for herself is a date to the upcoming dance.
I resent that when you see someone running outside, you assume it's a male.
I resent stereotypes, I resent having to get dressed in the morning, I resent gender roles, and I resent society.
Bitter full of this bitterness breaking into my heart.
How do you reclaim your innocence? How do you make this all
Stop.

Challenged

 I will take the 50 Book Challenge.

I will post in this blog every time I finish one.
Let the reading begin.

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1. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
2. Ethan Frome by Edith Wharton
3. Rose of No Man's Land by Michelle Tea
4. The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
5. Go Tell it on the Mountain by James Baldwin
6. Preludes and Nocturnes by Neil Gaiman
7. One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich by Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn
8. 28 Days Later: The Aftermath by Steve Niles
9. The Glass Menagerie by Tennessee Williams
10. The Female of the Species: Tales of Mystery and Suspense by Joyce Carol Oates
11. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows by J. K. Rowling
12. The Selected Poetry of Edna St. Vincent Millay by Edna St. Vincent Millay
13. The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides
14. Freakonomics by Stephen J. Dubner and Steven D. Levitt
15. Keeping You a Secret by Julie Ann Peters
16. A Walk in the Woods by Bill Bryson
17. 1984 by George Orwell
18. Microserfs by Douglas Coupland
19. All About Love by bell hooks
20. Brave New World by Aldous Huxley